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Greece 2003

talia speaks — Fri, 30 Nov 2012 05:19:28 +0000

Greece 2003, a photo by Jason and Kirsten on Flickr.

Where I’d like to be right now….

Insomnia

talia speaks — Wed, 14 Nov 2012 07:14:13 +0000

INSOMNIA. The state of being awake at night when you have 1,000,000 things to do in the morning , when you can’t do anything but think about somebody, just staring into the darkness wondering if there is something watching you. INSOMNIA. It’s so many things. I mean if I could put myself to sleep right now I would but I can’t. Either something is haunting me or I’m in a really bad episode of The Twilight Zone. I’d love to tell everybody that I’ll be sleeping a few minutes but I probably won’t be asleep until 5 minutes before I have to get up. Story of my life. It makes me wonder what everybody else around the world with insomnia is doing. We should start a club or something. How do you get to sleep at night?

DROUGHT

talia speaks — Mon, 22 Oct 2012 03:13:57 +0000

I’ve gone through a lot of changes over the last year. Unbelievable highs and desperate lows. I have my moments where I truly believe that I can make change. I then find myself not strong enough in that moment to do so. I thought moving back home would fill whatever this void is that I have inside of me. Yet I feel more disconnected from what I used to consider normal now more than I ever did before. I need to take myself back. Back to a time of innocence and naivety. I need to isolate and shelter myself from all things that deprive me of inspiration, warmth and passion. In doing so, I know that I have and will lose friends and make enemies due to their lack of understanding or willingness to understand. But I’m okay with less quantity and more quality in my life.

If I write it all down, If I get it all out of me. Maybe I can start anew. If not new, maybe I can start again.

Give Up the Ghost

talia speaks — Fri, 05 Oct 2012 12:46:33 +0000

20 minutes later I’m still trying to catch my breath it was 1 of those nightmares where you have an out of body experience and you can’t tell whether it’s really happening to you or not I’m pretty sure that its all real because something like that has happened to me its so funny you think you move on over people and sometimes they just have a piece of you that they keep them forever I wish there was a way for me to be mad but I can’t just not that kind of person. I understand this is what I go through…. out of body experiences at 7 in the morning. My heart pounding out of me like it doesnt belong. I think it’s trying to tell me something. That the pain is real only if you can’t let it go.

Today is the Day

talia speaks — Fri, 28 Sep 2012 04:15:25 +0000

Life has an interesting way of telling you when to take risks and when not to. Today, I woke up feeling like something special was going to happen. Like something bigger than me was plotting some event for the day. Turns out, the signs were right. Today, I got a little courage. Today, I put myself first. Soon we’ll find out if it pays off!!!

Interesting thought of the day:

How can change be expected if the process stays the same?!?

Toots!

Just is..

talia speaks — Wed, 22 Feb 2012 19:34:35 +0000

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talia speaks — Wed, 15 Feb 2012 22:09:05 +0000

I used to tell myself that I would be strong. That no matter what at the end of the day I only had myself. The one person on this earth that I shouldn’t betray but in the way that only I can do I did. Talk about honesty talk about love. If you really know me you know how minimal I make those characteristics and words seem. I act like I can’t be touched. Like I can’t be hurt. Like I’m made of steel. All I’m made of is insecurity and doubt. Took a while for me to admit that. Cause no one knew. Even if they knew now they may not believe it. Tired of pretending I guess. When I make my move. My next move. There’s no going back. And ill still be steel…at least to the naked eye.

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I’ve Renewed My Vows to Music [Day 5]

talia speaks — Tue, 07 Feb 2012 01:30:49 +0000

It’s been a while since I had any time to listen to music. But of course, whenever I find something that just gives me that feel good vibe, I have to share it. Wanna hear it, here it go!

1. Feist – First of all, I just have to say I love this lil’ Canadian woman with a powerful voice. I found out about her years ago with that catchy tune “1, 2, 3, 4″. But since, had not invested much time into checking out her work more. Today I heard a song by Feist that I am in love with called “The Water”. It is deep, dark, and soulful. (three of my favorite things). The piano is beautifully played and shows just how talented she is. Check it out, here’s a live version.

2. Jessie J – I’ll have to admit, when I saw her last year on the MTV Music Awards, I was not sold. Until…one day I heard her song “Who You Are”. This song is passionate and full of inspiration. Not to mention it’s one of my favorite songs to sing in the shower

3. Demi Lovato – Confession….I’ve seen both Camp Rock movies lol. And what I got out of them was that this girl could sing. She was light-years better than a lot of other Disney stars who try to act and sing. She sings from the heart, at least I truly believe that. I feel bad and am worried about where she’s going with her career altough this song “Skyscraper” gives me some reassurance that everything is gonna be alright.

4. Emiliana Torrini – Ok… this is one of those guilty pleasure songs. That’s all I can say lol. It’s wild and the video makes no sense. Kinda looks like it was filmed in a zoo display. But I’m not judging cause I love the song “Jungle Drum”

5. Flyleaf – I absolutely enjoyed their first album. And I feel bad that I’m just now getting around to listening to their second album, Memento Mori. A good friend of mine says that it’s no good but I’m giving it mixed reviews. There are some songs that I don’t really care for and then others that I love like this one. It’s called “Again”. I love Lacey Mosleys’ voice, full of …… something, can’t put my finger on it.

6. We Are The Fallen – Often compared to Evanescence, similar in sound but good in their own right. I really like the stage presence the lead singer has. Check out “Bury Me Alive”

7. Yeah Yeah Yeahs – I like this groups original sound. My favorite song of theirs is “Maps”. And I also love to play that song on Rock Band (guilty I know). But now I find myself jammin in the car to their club banger “Heads Will Roll”. After hearing this song, I definitely think they should have used it in the newest Alice in Wonderland movie if they didn’t already.The video is awesome! A monster doing MJ moves.

8. Gnarls Barkley – Firstly, I love all of his aliases and the uniqueness of his music. I’m now playing “I’m Going On” repeatedly! It talks about how a person has got to move forward cause it is better than staying put!

9. Day 26 – REALLY??! I was looking at them on YoutTube and someone commented “help them survive the diddy curse”. Lol too funny. However, I will say the group is not the same without Q but I’m glad they are making music. Here’s something that’ll be on their new cd. “Made Love Lately”

10. Natalia Kills – I just got her cd Perfectionist. It’s on repeat. I can say I like 87% of it. This song “Free” is just a feel good song that I can’t get out of my head.

It’s Been Years Since I Put Pen to Paper

talia speaks — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 08:35:49 +0000

HUNG

Backed into a corner,
Into a black hole
It left my body on earth,
And it took my soul

Being non-existent,
Walking on rock and dirt
Absorbing all the pain,
Feeling all the hurt

Trying to remember,
The things I once knew
What is happiness,
And why is every color now blue

Left foot then right foot,
Through crowds with no faces
Lacking the zest of emotion,
It’s bitter and tasteless

Looking around,
And all that I can see
Is what they want and wish,
For my tired bones to be

Hoping a miracle could happen,
Happen here and now
They’d reach into my past,
Find the old me somehow

But is moving forward,
A blessing or a curse
To deny what should be,
To lie, or even worse

To be a glass half empty,
Like the black hole intended
To be forever lost, broken,
Stuck and suspended.

I Was a Chef Last Night… Or So I Thought

talia speaks — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 16:53:08 +0000

Last night I decided to make myself a salad. But not just any salad. It’s the most wonderful salad ever. Here is my original masterpeice (if someone is already making it somewhere in the world I didn’t know).

WHAT YOU NEED:
Romaine Lettuce
Sliced Granny Smith Apples
Mandarin Oranges
Feta Cheese
Sliced Red and Green Bell Peppers
Sliced Cucumber
Sliced Red Onion
Craisins
Balsamic Vinagarette

Mix that all together and you get

I know it looks messy but it tastes like heaven!

Happy Eating

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